Asparagus

Joffre
The Joffre Group: Matier peak on the left and Joffre on the right (British Columbia)

“You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself any direction you choose. You’re on your own. And you know what you know. And YOU are the one who’ll decide where to go…” — Dr. Seuss

So another story about being poor, and the things it’s teaching me.

First off, I should let you know that this most definitely is not the first time I have been in this boat; I mean, the first time I flew across the country, I did so with an hour to pack my bags, barely making my flight (which was on a one way ticket), and $800 in my bank.  I’d never been to where I was going, and I had  no idea what on earth my crazy mind got me into.

While my family and friends were off discussing the fact that I was running away- because I didn’t want to deal with what I’d been dealt-I think I was actually out doing the exact opposite.

Even if I had no idea what I was doing, I was headed somewhere, figuring something out.

Sure, I had given up hope; I had given up hope that the world would ever make sense. Or that my life would be settle and smooth, and that the vibrant pictures I’d always dreamed of, would ever become real.

In other words, I’d come to terms with reality.

Cheshire catTruth is, life is crazyand always will be. That’s just the way it is.

Rather than “running away”, I had learned to trust my intuition; and I allowed it to take  precedence in my life. In fact, let’s clarify; I was never running away at all. Rather, I had made myself present to the brief moment of calm that I had been presented with, and, I ran with that.

Becoming aware of the power in the unknown has lead me to some pretty awesome places.

Suddenly, nothing is really scary any more. Sure, my heart still skips a beat from time to time, and my mind questions my sanity. But, the more I trust myself, and the more I trust the natural flow of life, the better things seem to work out.

Some asparagus for you
Some asparagus for you

What does this have to do with being poor again?
(And why the asparagus?)

Because the only reason I am in the pickle that I am is because I got trapped up in mind chatter. I’ve been stuck in a place where wildberries are everywhere and mushrooms grow year round. Somewhere that being poor is easy, accepted, and a preferred way of life- so long as it provides the freedom we seek of course. Physically speaking though, I am quite far from this place.

But then I realized how low the cash funds truly were and I became open to the idea that, although there may not be endless lush wild berries around here, Mother Earth is a provider. It is up to me to change my tactics; I must remember to  take the flow of life that is presented before me rather than the one that my mind has created.

Where I used to gather fresh lunch from the rainforest in my backyard, I guess I’ll have to gather from the prairie lands instead. Essentially, I have decided to take another stepping stone to learn about the world I inhabit and what it has to offer me.

Which, considering Earth is the provider of all life, it is endless of the things I will find…But that, that is another story.

In this epiphany, I have discovered that asparagus here, is like the West Coast mushroom hunting. Although, I believe it is significantly less common, and people probably think I am crazy because no one really does it at all. But oh well, what can you do right?

Stoked to see what’s out there!

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